When I was a freshman in high school, I made friends with a girl in her senior year.
Friends is a vast overstatement. Our relationship ranged from her treating me like a beloved pet/kid under her wing to treating me like I was nothing to her. Since I was fourteen, this probably had the generalized effect of making me constantly want to find a way into her good graces. I wasn’t exactly the most popular of kids and was struggling for attention from girls and so any kind of attention was better than being a non-entity.
I was having my tonsils taken out right before Christmas vacation that year and she made me a mix-tape. I don’t remember if it was a get well soon present or just something from her good graces. The girl in question was probably the only Goth at my Long Island High School at the time and my first real exposure to alt rock subculture. I discovered the Ramones in Eight Grade but this mix tape was my first real introduction to bands like Christian Death, Joy Division, and other bands that could roughly be described as being part of the underground, alternative, post-punk, goth scene of the 80s and 90s. This was one of the songs:
When I was driving home from my mom’s house on Sunday afternoon, this song came on my Pandora station. It must have been the first time I heard it in over 10 years and I instantly went back to getting that mix tape.
I don’t know much about about what happened to the girl. She graduated after my freshman year and I saw her once when I was a sophomore and then once again after my freshman year of college. I don’t even remember her last name except that it was Greek.
What are your mix-tape memories? Either giving or receiving. What do kids these day do in lieu of mixtapes?
Today was the first time I saw the music video for the song. A google search tells me “But Not Tonight” was on the soundtrack for a movie called Modern Girls. This was an easily forgotten comedy from the 1980s that bombed at the box office, earning slightly over 600,000 according to wikipedia. My favorite thing about the video is that it makes the movie seem more serious than it really is.