Blogging One’s Conversion
Rod Dreher and Patrick Archbold are alarmed that former atheist blogger Leah Libresco plans to write about her conversion while in the process of becoming Catholic. Dreher worries that the ideologues who infest conversion-related comment threads “could douse any spark of enthusiasm and curiosity for the faith.” Archbold is on the same page:
Conversion is a process and Leah doesn’t know what she doesn’t know yet. It will take a lot of prayer, intellectual and spiritual assent, and perseverance. She will undoubtedly battle with herself and God many times until the conversion takes root. To go through this process in public with atheists tearing at you from one side and the holier-than-thou brigade hitting you from the other is a tightrope walk worthy of a Wallenda.
I take their point about the addition trial of undergoing public scrutiny, criticism, and ridicule while making a conversion, but I have to side with Libresco in this, and I suspect she’s up to the task. I’d do the same were I moved to convert to another religious faith or to forsake religion altogether. I’m not the proselytizing type, but I do tend to vocalize thoughts and feelings related to my faith, especially those in reference to internal struggles, doubts, and uncertainties. Mine is not a private faith. Nor, I gather, is Leah Libresco’s.
My faith, moreover, is not static. It’s a journey, in the dark, and a little different each day. You could say I’m in a constant state of conversion, moving away from some way of being religious and towards another, grappling with unanswerable questions and unceasing doubts. I have no plans to settle. My faith is fluid, sometimes serenely refreshing, sometimes a tempest. Wouldn’t want it otherwise. I know that I’d blog a conversion process because I already do.